feeling the sand beneath me
and looking out at the vastness that is the ocean,
i take deep breaths
and simply exist.
floating and moving in the water
and feeling the subtle changes in its current,
i am here
and this is what makes me feel alive.
moments like these
are comforting and humbling.
i am reminded of how little i am
beside the ocean that goes on and on.
just carry me with you,
and i will go wherever your currents take me.
—
there will come a time when i get to wake up to the sound of the sea
everyday.
i will write,
i will surf,
i will live,
and i will be happy.
but until then,
i will be holding on to my last memory of it all.